I don't know what to do with myself half the time I am awake. And when I sleep I feel that I should be awake. And then soon I will not be able to sleep again cuz I can't afford my sleeping pills or my other meds. I will be on my own and lost in my head. I am paranoid to not in a bad way you know heh. I just can't be alone its sad I know pathetic even but that's who I am and what happens to me.
Some people understand and help me through it but when there is no one, I feel helpless and like I am drowning in a pool of tar. Maybe life can get better, I only hope that I will feel better each day.
I know I am me, but who is me really. . . . and how can I find me in the jumble of the other. how can I swim to the surface and smile once again without faking it or just having surface feelings.
4 comments:
you have to go to odin and unleash fenris imho :)
im not sure what you intended withthe statement "yea yea I ain't here take it and like it cuz what else can you do ^^" if you mean to use subetly to end our friendhip or if this isnt direted towards me. thats the downfall of only communicating by writing i guess. i gues sits a brushoff. i asked joes opinion of ya not talking back and he said we're still friends and i hope so. however this snippett is snide, and if you dont want to be friends anymore than just say so. ill wait for you to message me, i fyou want to continue our friendship, but otherwise ill let you go and i wish you well. have a good smahain anyways and hug elijah lots for me. goodbye boudica.
this was christie, under joes profile, sorry bout that
man i wish i could write on a big cardboard sign quit hurting shelleys feeling s and hold it up everytime she talks.
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